Chapter 986: Searching for the Will

sounded amazing. , it felt unreal to Suqin, like winning the lottery and feeling dizzy with disbelief. ” 。She didn't go exploring the truth behind Jonny's words, but rather enjoyed the happiness hi...Kou Dan simply gave her opinion, through this she was even more certain that Qin Jingwen's heartache was because of Qiao Shunchen

"Shall we do it again"Qin Jingwen was surprised, thinking this was the last time 。Qin Jingwen's fear wasn't so easily cured. Her ability to make such progress in such a short time was beyond what an ordinary person could achieve. It's just that Qin Jingwen herself wasn't satisfied with this speed, or maybe she didn't want to bother Qiao Shunchen. 。There has to be a next time, or else it'll all be for nothing. 。“

Kodan gave a very definite and responsible answer.

"Joe Shunchen is a busy man, I can't always drag him around" 。"

Qin Jingwen was unhappy with the speed of this healing because Qiao Shunchen had guessed it correctly. >>> 。Then I'll go to your place in the evening, he always has time at night, right 。You just have to work a little harder, and I'll add an extra serving for dinner. 。To cure Qin Jingwen's heart disease, Kou Dan must not give Qin Jingwen a chance to escape. 。Joe Shun-chen was her medicine. Without Joe Shun-chen, even if this illness was cured, there would be another one waiting to take its place. 。Qin Jingwen seemed to have no reason to refuse, and began to close her mouth and remain silent. 。She was afraid that if Qiao Shunchen was there, she would lose control of her emotions and throw herself into his arms to cry like she did today. 。She was someone who had to leave, no matter whether Qiao Shunchen's feelings for her were real or not. She didn't want to give Qiao Shunchen hope and didn't want to hurt him when she left. 。The more he understood her, the more he would pity her, and the deeper he would hurt himself. 。This is also the last thing Qin Jingwen wants to see. 。"Wenwen, since you like Qiao Shunchen so much, why not give him a chance" 。You two, anyone who sees you are a perfect match, why do you have to torment each other 。" Kou Dan really couldn't help herself, so she asked two more questions. 。She definitely didn't know Qin Jingwen's experiences, but she felt that nothing could stop the pursuit of love. 。"What a natural pair we are, there's no reason why we can't be together." 。"Qin Jingwen used Qiao Dexiang's words as an excuse. From now on, she would use Qiao Dexiang's words as the only reason why she and Qiao Shunchen weren't together." 。"The reason is something you find yourself. If you don't care or mind, there is no reason." 。Kou Dan's words were very powerful. She felt that her words would hit Qin Jingwen's heart directly and make her understand some things, more or less. 。I also want to let go and ignore everything, but too many experiences and reasons prevent me from discarding them all. 。I was with him, but he never believed me from the beginning. He was the one who broke up with me. 。"Although I don't get love, I won't let myself be hurt anymore. If it's over, then it's over." 。Qin Jingwen has suffered wounds that others can't fathom. Just from Qiao Shunchen, she's already scarred and bruised. She has no mood or courage to think too much about it anymore. 。She loved him but was also afraid of him, afraid that he didn't truly love her, afraid that he would say "break up" again, and even more afraid that everything he said was just a joke. 。"What you're saying doesn't match your current situation at all. To outsiders, you look like a couple, even husband and wife." 。But what you said has nothing to do with anything. 。" Wenwen, the reason I say that is because I feel you have more questions. 。Hurt, so you're afraid. 。"Kodan analyzed seriously, Qin Jingwen's description of their relationship was like speaking with disconnected words and phrases." 。Being together all day long, others see a heartwarming picture, a loving scene. 。She herself said they had already broken up and there was nothing left between them, which can only explain one thing: that she is the only one avoiding it. 。Yes, I'm very afraid. If he hurts me again, I might die. 。“ Qin Jingwen did not avoid this question. She was indeed afraid to probe into Qiao Shunchen's heart, afraid to accept his apology, and even more afraid to forgive him.” 。Once everything is forgiven, we return to the beginning. 。"No, you won't die from his hurt, because you are a mother, and the strength of a mother might surprise even yourself. " 。You wouldn't easily abandon them, you wouldn't stay away from them. 。" Kou Dan's statement is not professional knowledge, but common sense, a shared trait of all mothers. " 。Women are inherently gentle, but as mothers they become strong, a strength beyond even their own imagination. 。So that point of love's hurt was healable to Qin Jingwen. 。"I will not give up my children, I will not abandon them easily." 。I just want to protect them while also protecting myself. I don't want to cause anyone any trouble. 。Qin Jingwen knew Kou Dan had hit the nail on the head about all she cared about, saying death was probably an exaggeration. 。She would certainly not choose death over her children, but what's the point of living if there is no soul What value and joy is there in existence without a soul 。"Then you define what your relationship with Qiao Shunchen is" Ke Dan felt like she had met a match. Qin Jingwen was very difficult to persuade. 。Perhaps it's because of the many injuries suffered and the many grievances accumulated in his heart that his psychology has been affected to some extent. 。To completely change her thoughts, perhaps only Qiao Shunchen could. 。“Me and him” Qin Jingwen had never really thought about this question before. She always felt like they didn't have any kind of relationship, but he would hold her hand, kiss her unexpectedly, and even more seriously, the two of them would have what they euphemistically called “relations.” 。All of this contradicted what she had defined as a relationship. 。I can't quite put it into words, so let me break it down for you. 。You're not exactly clean friends, nor are you an openly affectionate couple. 。

At first sight, you fall in love. But when you turn around, you treat him like a stranger.

"I'm analyzing it, right"Kou Dan asked Qin Jingwen, but her analysis was only from Qin Jingwen's point of view 。In Joe Shun-chen's mind, Qin Jingwen had no other identity but his girlfriend, even his wife. 。Qin Jingwen's mind went blank because Kou Dan had summarized the most truthful and frustrated thoughts in her heart. 。Jo Shun-chen, in Qin Jingwen's mind, has always been a contradictory figure. 。Even reminding myself to keep distance, to see clearly the relationship between them, when I saw him... 。Ke Qin was still unable to control her conviction that he was her lover. 。But when she couldn't see him, her mind became unusually clear and realistic. At this time, Qiao Shunchen simply became a stranger to her. 。Qin Jingwen suddenly laughed at herself, wondering if she had split personalities. How could she be so complex and conflicted in her view of the issue 。"Right, I'm not wrong, am I" 。 with Chi Chuan. 。"I understand what you mean." 。You don't have to worry about me, whatever I do you shouldn't feel burdened. 。Please don't take my words to heart today, and don't feel burdened by t...